My instincts were right.

I thank the Lord Jesus for showing me how you felt. I just felt so hurt when i knew, but i m grateful it wasnt worse. Looks really bother? MAybe it does. It bothers me too. Sigh.. But i nearly fell... or maybe already did. But i'm glad that my fall wasnt that bad. I dunno. What you said made me feel good at first. Your promises. I cant believe i actually believed you. I feel so naive. Maybe you are trying, but i cant see why this had to happen. Get out! This place supposed to have space for you. Sigh.. I really hope i'm just assuming. Cos its like so obvious. AH!!! I really dun like this. Dawn, stay happy, joyful. Sigh. One of the fruits to spiritual life is joy. Lord Jesus, help me to stay joyful, even if it was sth that made me really sad. i dunno... i dunno wad to do. Help me..